I am so sick

I am so sick! sick sick sick

this weird tight pain in my lower abdomen that's been irritating me for 4 days counting.. Wonder when it'll get better.. been trying massage, eating less, drinking more water, exercising.. Nothing seems to work!! grr. super irritating!!

Life isn't looking wonderful too, since school already started and there's so much pressure to do well this semester! Haiz... Well anyways, i've been keeping myself busy with many activities.. One of which is this Conversation buddies program, and I made 4 new friends! They're from Japan, Korea and Vietnam. So cool! Our first session to converse is officially this coming Wed 11am!! haha. It's fun cos Christina joined with me (actually she asked me if i was interested to join, and i was, so i did!).. It's very interesting interacting with people from different nationalities and im so super excited to meet them this wednesday! hehe. Besides, I made a huge error on the first briefing by saying that I want to make more friends through the program (which the speaker said specifically that this shouldn't be our reason joining the program!!) LOLS. I missed almost the entire briefing! SO i wasn't informed. hahaha. it was quite a joke when i said it cos EVERYONE of them laughed and realised i shouldn't be saying that. lols.

Other activities include having my weekend busy with tuition and exercising early in the morning 6am (which kinda kills my sleeping pattern). My parents are recently super enthu about this Detox Exercise program, organised by Billy Wang. He heads the exercise at KK hospital everyday at 6am-7am.. And we have been, or rather, my parents have been diligently attending it every Saturday morning! While i've missed 2 sessions due to the late sleepless nights i spend either in front of my computer or having insomnia on my bed. Anws.. Waking up this early makes me sleepy around 9-10am of the same morning after the exercise! and I end up sleeping in the day more! Whether for good or for bad, it still kinda gets me stressed..

New Skin

YAY! finally i changed my blogskin.. Xiaoxuan recommended me this site, that has super cool blog skins! happened to find this one that i like and thus there's a new change! so happy!

anws.. thank you Janet, Zijia and my beloved Arul for the positive comments on this skin! So cool rite? haha My baby sister, seeks to disagree ( as always ) and thinks this is so childish compared to her new skin. Do check her skin if you guys are free. haha

Well, that's all for now!

Anxiety attacks

recently i seem to be having anxiety/panic attacks that're mild and slightly distressing.. they seem to occur anytime, but generally discomfort is felt during classroom lessons.. And I've never been like this before! I need some therapy! OH NO! Major distress..

For example, when i want to speak in class, i get jittery and stressed for NO apparent reason!
Haiz, i really duno wad to do.. I've been trying out Deep breaths before speaking up and clearing up my thoughts properly before talking.. to NO avail! It doesn't seem to work well at all.. I wonder why im so jittery nowadays..

Anws this sux and i really cant continue functioning now.. Im getting paranoid about these and it's spiraling down .. and I dun want my presentations to get all nervous and bad :( marks really gonna count this semester and I guess that's why im so panicky and anxious .. anws.. this isn't looking good and I really hope my strategies work out soon! haiz

School has started

I haven been updating my blog for quite long and seeing as Janet is urging me to, and also because its accumulating dust.. I shall post something about life recently..

Well, this is the first time in so many years i'm looking forward to school and anticipating the 'interesting' lectures in a seminar style!! Well, the first week of school wasn't that exciting rather than stressful as I realised there're alot of things to catch up on .. like readings on core modules and especially cos i took them more than 1 year ago! sheesh. So much stress and shall i call them undue stress? might be undue cos there're lotsa readings and they probably would help. plus since i decided to do my honors year, i should just take things in stride and i should have been prepared before school instead of trying to earn money! grr

wth. anws.. 2 of my modules are super duper hyper boring.. that's Psychological assessment and Social Psychology.. amazingly boring! but it should get more insightful as the lecture proper starts next week (i hope).. The module that's super interesting is Introduction to Counseling cos there're alot of insightful experiences contributed by the lecturer who's working as a Senior Psychologist at IMH (institute of mental health).

So i've been busy printing notes and pdf files lately since there're quite a number of lecture notes and readings associated with them..

The only problem i'm facing now is time management .. trying to re-allocate my tuition timings to 1 wkend day instead of both saturdays and sundays .. I cant stand not having 1 free weekend (someone agree with me that we at least need 1 empty day of rest and feel as if we have the whole day to do something that we love or at least just empty our minds from work or school? I bet everyone agrees.)

Also, recently something happened to my sister: she fell down heavily and badly in her school carpark. we suspect its got something to do with stepping over this joss sticks the previous night in our neighborhood.. anws.. i just hope its nothing to do with the ghost festival and since she already fell down badly, nothing else bad will happen again .. *shudders*

well anws since school has started, i must work hard this semester and try to do as best i can.. if not it'll be a waste of my time and also a bad choice to continue my honors year! I cant let down myself and everyone who believes in me!

My colleagues rock

I've a bunch of fun colleagues.. today we went shopping at Bugis! even tho i came home empty handed, it was a fun and laughingly filled trip! hahaha I am going to miss them when i leave.. :(

Our jigsaw puzzle

This is a picture of my half completed jigsaw.. :)

Its a 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle that we bought .. Finally we see it growing after 1 year of buying it and gathering dust! haha

anws.. the panorama picture wasn't taken well and there seems to be a ghost ship at the right side - So cool right. lols

i hate this

There's a brewery at my office block.. The container is a brewery tank!!

2 Signs in my workplace toilet! They stare down at you.. btw the face above is the face of the cleaning aunty.

These are proof that i've been opening envelopes for e past few days!
The job sux like shit. same thing again today. Things i learn fr om this job
(1) Do not take any shit from anyone
(2) Do not take any shit from anyone
(3) Do not take any shit from anyone

Yep, basically all summarised in the above 3! lols

Dante's Peak

Tonight i watched dante's peak.. a movie on volcano eruption starring Pierce Brosnan :) it was a very good and exciting show! slow beginning where there was a slight indication of the 'ending', almost a cheerful and non-suspecting middle, until the very scary and hair-raising, pillow-gripping climax at the end! lives were lost and towns were destroyed.. overall a very educational show that brings me in touch with earth's natural disasters and also about how nature can sometimes destroy itself in a most peculiar way that humans are not good with handling.

still, the volcano pyroclaustic cloud was spectacular and certainly Pierce Brosnan is rather charming.. hee

well, that's all for today!

my work is completely horrible

this morning i went to work fresh and cheerful only to be greeted by 3 ple telling me off in a haphazard helicopter spinning fast kinda way that i've done millions of mistakes and that i need to correct them.. i was still thinking which breakfast should i eat- my biscuits or my cereal or my bread.. and they were telling me things that i've no idea about.. plus i knew in my carelessness, i probably did some errors, but not THAT many.. well, since im just a temp worker, i better just take it and listen carefully unless i wana make More mistakes.. so the morning goes..

i realised after checking that i onli had 4 errors! in the whole excel sheet which had more than, lemmi c, 25 stalls, 5 items to check for each stall, and 23 days altogether, that makes 25 time 5 time 23! that's quite a huge number rite? i onli made 4 mistakes! well, that doesn't sound too bad to myself! but NO, the supervisor had to repeat to me at least 4 times that i made MANY errors! she had to keep insisting that. wth. just shut up. im already correcting the dumb errors i made so just shut up. its irritating how she fakes a smile and then tells me off. also she said 'every body makes mistakes' after she said 'dont u see how many mistakes there are? i highlighted them in red" but all i saw was the ratio of 4 is to 7. 4: mistakes, 7: non-mistakes! and she insisted i make super a hell of a lot mistakes. that is just so bitchy. i hate it.

anws.. the whole day was ruined. just completely ruined. i hate this work. the pple are so damn rude they cant tell you properly when u do sth wrong. and they simply just take u as an object, not as a freaking human being.

i wished i cld quit now. like just stop working but i cant. i gotta stick til sch reopens. and that sux. i wished i had loads of $$ so i dun hafta put down my pride and work like shit in that shitty asshole place. i hate it.

i did it!

i just had to click on the improve ur template or sth like that..