I am in control of my life!

Yep! recently i've been thinking about this statement alot.. I am the one in control of my life.. When I ride, I am in control. If im lousy, it just reflects on how much I am in control - badly.. anws.. The idea that im in bad control simply springs up day after day, lesson after lesson. Although i passed the previous lesson, it just seems that there's some basic thing that keeps coming up, the basic issue is that I lack control. how can I be in control when I actually lack control? hmm. Well i guess it reflects how much I am in control. When things go badly, I am in control. When things go well, I am also in control! haha

For instance, I was riding up the slope, when I suddenly let go of my clutch (i think), which caused me to jerk forward and then i think i suddenly pulled it back abruptly, since i was shocked. Anws, it just stalled in the middle of the slope.. and left me hanging in mid air.. I was defenseless as my engine refuses to start after pressing the engine button. Well, the always there for you KIck start lever was finally put to the test. and not only did i kick it many times, my instructor was helping to kick it too.. haha! The worse thing was that after kicking start the engine, I again did another mistake.. and the rest was a snowball effect of mistakes after mistakes (i really wished i became a snowball in the slope -- i could have easily rolled down without much effort) but as if tat was the case! I stalled and kick-start for maybe 7-9 times. Really gotta thank the instructor and the cars & motorbikes behind me for their wonderful patience!! I lack tat kinda patience, so i feel bad .. After this incident, i'll be more patient to others hehe