Sunday, 6 April 2008
Saturday, 5 April 2008
Why? - Part I
sometimes life feels so meaningless. so empty. so boring. I feel like time has stopped, only to realise the time on the clock has moved by hours. The feeling is so alive, so real. Yet I know, I need to push myself and get the feeling out of my being. I no longer feel like doing much, pushing for anything, working hard for anything. Life becomes like it is - people walking past me, sun comes out and shines, the wind blows. Nothing becomes fun or exciting or stimulating anymore.
I seem to feel this existence that has come upon me, an existence speaking of nothingness. Yet it speaks something to my soul. It makes my head empty, it fills my stomach with dread, it looks upon me as a useless creature of the earth. This is a very simple, yet complicated feeling.
I do not yet understand from where it came to me, or in what form it came. I do not know how to handle it nor do I know of what will happen to me next. What I do know is that I spend minutes of my life just staring into space, zoning out, not finding interest in what I'm doing. That's only when I've finished working on my deadlines, of course. But a substantial time of my resting hours are spent just like that.
At first it revealed to me in the form of missing my friends. For some, or no reason at all, I really wish I could see my friends or talk to them. Makes me long for their company. Then, it revealed its form to me in other mysterious ways, like not wanting to eat or just wanting to do my work all day. It made me feel like reading books, just reading every single page and more books. I enjoyed that, and nothing else much. Last thing I know, I've suddenly become a slightly different person, just slightly. The feeling is subtle, but influencing me all the time. It maybe made me more or something and less of something. That something is still unknown to myself.
I seem to feel this existence that has come upon me, an existence speaking of nothingness. Yet it speaks something to my soul. It makes my head empty, it fills my stomach with dread, it looks upon me as a useless creature of the earth. This is a very simple, yet complicated feeling.
I do not yet understand from where it came to me, or in what form it came. I do not know how to handle it nor do I know of what will happen to me next. What I do know is that I spend minutes of my life just staring into space, zoning out, not finding interest in what I'm doing. That's only when I've finished working on my deadlines, of course. But a substantial time of my resting hours are spent just like that.
At first it revealed to me in the form of missing my friends. For some, or no reason at all, I really wish I could see my friends or talk to them. Makes me long for their company. Then, it revealed its form to me in other mysterious ways, like not wanting to eat or just wanting to do my work all day. It made me feel like reading books, just reading every single page and more books. I enjoyed that, and nothing else much. Last thing I know, I've suddenly become a slightly different person, just slightly. The feeling is subtle, but influencing me all the time. It maybe made me more or something and less of something. That something is still unknown to myself.
Thursday, 3 April 2008
gender presentation remarks
Feedback given to our Gender Group by the prof
all we wished was for the class to participate more.. haiz.. i guess most other groups also found the same lack of response from the class as a problematic behavior .. at least our group had good time management! haha
Strengths:
- Very clear speech of all group members
- Lively and variety of presentation styles
- Informative, with interesting research and experiment findings
- Good summary at the end of presentation
- Good time management
Improvements:
- More involvement with peer students, especially during the first 20 minutes
- More discussion with results and findings
Earth Hour
About Earth Hour
On March 31 2007, for one hour, Sydney made a powerful statement about the greatest contributor to global warming – coal-fired electricity – by turning off its lights. Over 2.2 million Sydney residents and over 2,100 businesses switched off, leading to a 10.2% energy reduction across the city. What began as one city taking a stand against global warming caught the attention of the world.
In 2008, 24 global cities participated in Earth Hour at 8pm on March 29. Earth Hour is the highlight of a major campaign to encourage businesses, communities and individuals to take the simple steps needed to cut their emissions on an ongoing basis. It is about simple changes that will collectively make a difference – from businesses turning off their lights when their offices are empty, to households turning off appliances rather than leaving them on standby.
Access the website here http://www.earthhour.org
yeah, i'm advocating for earth hour! all of us should conserve the earth's resources, and this is one big way to reduce electrical usage! pls spread the message around!
On March 31 2007, for one hour, Sydney made a powerful statement about the greatest contributor to global warming – coal-fired electricity – by turning off its lights. Over 2.2 million Sydney residents and over 2,100 businesses switched off, leading to a 10.2% energy reduction across the city. What began as one city taking a stand against global warming caught the attention of the world.
In 2008, 24 global cities participated in Earth Hour at 8pm on March 29. Earth Hour is the highlight of a major campaign to encourage businesses, communities and individuals to take the simple steps needed to cut their emissions on an ongoing basis. It is about simple changes that will collectively make a difference – from businesses turning off their lights when their offices are empty, to households turning off appliances rather than leaving them on standby.
Access the website here http://www.earthhour.org
yeah, i'm advocating for earth hour! all of us should conserve the earth's resources, and this is one big way to reduce electrical usage! pls spread the message around!
Saturday, 29 March 2008
recent updates
wow i've been rather busy with project meetings lately.. just meetings after meetings, lugging along my heavy laptop and bag!
most recent, i've been to my ex-colleague's wedding dinner on friday nite! it's my 1st ex-colleague getting married! hehe. so exciting!! anws, just waiting for Steven to send me the photos, so i can post online.. tho my pictures weren't that good .. hahaha. It was really fun meeting all of them again, they're real nice and genuine people! we talked about so many things, and so much nonsense.. i drank 3 glasses of red wine, and half glass of beer.. i was so happy meeting them, that after that, when i got home, i was quite high and actually couldn't sleep till 3am plus! but it was bad, cos i was totally zonked out the next day (on which saturday was a total flop, and i couldn't do my work at all) I just slept like 3 hours!! wad bad sleep!!
Sunday's post
recovered from the high and lack of sleep, this morning i woke up refreshed and worked on the gender presentation slides! I love them!! So colourful and full of funny cartoons and pictures!! hehehe i posted in dazzlingweather too (for those enthu enough to read)!
Cant believe that my weekend is just gone like that, rushing this and that!
My parents went off m'sia for Qing ming jie since thurs night, but they kept calling me and my sister like 3 times a day! its a lil too much for us to bear.. oh well, i guess my mom just misses us too much! haha. she actualli called me during the wedding dinner, just to tell me some irrelevant stuffs. anws, they're coming back tmr morning, and seriously, i'm kinda used to the quietness without my mom's nonstop talking (i mean, this is kinda a bittersweet thing).. well, i've so much work to do, but tmr still have to make time to have dinner with my uncle, who's stopping by for a transit. he's nice to stopover, to lian luo gan qing (work on our relations) but i really gotta mug for my modes of invention test on tues! haha. and i'm kinda dreading gg for psychophysiology class on tues, for fear he'd 'go thru' the test (i did really badly) haha. just feeling rather embarrassed about that. anws, i cant wait to start working on my modes of invention home experiment! it is really cool if my experiment works well hehe!!
still got to rush my tr report due next monday, and also the devt process report (which my grp mates haven started doing anything.. i really duno how it'll get itself done in the end). oh well.. too many deadlines to care, actually! haha
when the ship reaches the harbour, it'll find its way.
most recent, i've been to my ex-colleague's wedding dinner on friday nite! it's my 1st ex-colleague getting married! hehe. so exciting!! anws, just waiting for Steven to send me the photos, so i can post online.. tho my pictures weren't that good .. hahaha. It was really fun meeting all of them again, they're real nice and genuine people! we talked about so many things, and so much nonsense.. i drank 3 glasses of red wine, and half glass of beer.. i was so happy meeting them, that after that, when i got home, i was quite high and actually couldn't sleep till 3am plus! but it was bad, cos i was totally zonked out the next day (on which saturday was a total flop, and i couldn't do my work at all) I just slept like 3 hours!! wad bad sleep!!
Sunday's post
recovered from the high and lack of sleep, this morning i woke up refreshed and worked on the gender presentation slides! I love them!! So colourful and full of funny cartoons and pictures!! hehehe i posted in dazzlingweather too (for those enthu enough to read)!
Cant believe that my weekend is just gone like that, rushing this and that!
My parents went off m'sia for Qing ming jie since thurs night, but they kept calling me and my sister like 3 times a day! its a lil too much for us to bear.. oh well, i guess my mom just misses us too much! haha. she actualli called me during the wedding dinner, just to tell me some irrelevant stuffs. anws, they're coming back tmr morning, and seriously, i'm kinda used to the quietness without my mom's nonstop talking (i mean, this is kinda a bittersweet thing).. well, i've so much work to do, but tmr still have to make time to have dinner with my uncle, who's stopping by for a transit. he's nice to stopover, to lian luo gan qing (work on our relations) but i really gotta mug for my modes of invention test on tues! haha. and i'm kinda dreading gg for psychophysiology class on tues, for fear he'd 'go thru' the test (i did really badly) haha. just feeling rather embarrassed about that. anws, i cant wait to start working on my modes of invention home experiment! it is really cool if my experiment works well hehe!!
still got to rush my tr report due next monday, and also the devt process report (which my grp mates haven started doing anything.. i really duno how it'll get itself done in the end). oh well.. too many deadlines to care, actually! haha
when the ship reaches the harbour, it'll find its way.
Monday, 24 March 2008
Got my Pay!
Finally got my pay! my student already cancelled 2 lessons in the past month, that's why I haven got my pay yet. anws, just happy to get my pay!!
Sunday, 23 March 2008
Good Friday Continued!!
My first time eating this Char Siew noodles. It is superb! VERY delicious ~
My first time eating Oishi Pizza! The Eel pizza is very very yummy!!
Yuwen sprinkling the seaweed and flakes patiently as we looked on in starvation (only huien). ahem
We ended off our fast-paced mahjong with some formations!! haha
My own mahjong tile formation!!
Zijia did hers after catching on our 'wind' .. haha
Zijia did hers after catching on our 'wind' .. hahaSaturday, 22 March 2008
Good Friday Hangout with Psy Friends =D
It was a Good Friday as we went to lunch at Sushi Tei @ Paragon. Initially we wanted to eat a feast at Seoul Garden, but there was no student lunch special and after some deliberation, we decided it wasn't worth it to pay 25 bucks for the lunch.. Off we trotted to Paragon looking for more food.. and 'stumbled' on Sushi Tei. Obviously we all love Japanese food, and so it was like a choice. On the way, Xiao xuan saw this cute baby who had peachy cheeks! We all couldn't help but walk closer for a good peek at the cute baby!! hehe. Yup, upon reaching the restaurant, we couldn't decided what to eat; our stomachs were close to growling and all the food looked really delicious. We were sitting at a spacious seat, and from there, we had a full view of the kitchen that was enclosed with some transparent plastic. What was so amazing was the fire that kept appearing in the kitchen from time to time. It was kinda exciting to see the cooks trying not to burn themselves with the flames that shot up close to their faces from the woks. Wonder what they were trying to cook!! hehe
As expected, since my hp is still relatively new, I'm still rather enthusiastic to take photos!!
Xiaoxuan ordered this eel omelette! the eel tasted good, but the omelette was abit too hard. ="(
Zijia ordered this fish icecream! Inside was redbean and vanilla icecream! Superb. dun get me to eat my own kind.
Xiaoxuan and Janet ordered Chicken Katsu don! In case ur wondering why there're 2 repeated photos, its because Xiaoxuan took the one below. haha
This is Xiaoxuan's recommendation - Nabeyaki Udon. It has many ingredients!! hehe Zijia got this one =)
Last but not least, my all-time favourite! Curry udon! I wont miss this for anything! Yummy!!
After lunch, we went to International building for Partyworld. It was great!! hehe
We went shopping after that, and dinner at Far East! We each bought stuffs.. hehe
tiring but satisfied, we went home after a good dinner, and good buys!!
As expected, since my hp is still relatively new, I'm still rather enthusiastic to take photos!!
Xiaoxuan ordered this eel omelette! the eel tasted good, but the omelette was abit too hard. ="(
Zijia ordered this fish icecream! Inside was redbean and vanilla icecream! Superb. dun get me to eat my own kind.
Xiaoxuan and Janet ordered Chicken Katsu don! In case ur wondering why there're 2 repeated photos, its because Xiaoxuan took the one below. haha
This is Xiaoxuan's recommendation - Nabeyaki Udon. It has many ingredients!! hehe Zijia got this one =)
Last but not least, my all-time favourite! Curry udon! I wont miss this for anything! Yummy!!After lunch, we went to International building for Partyworld. It was great!! hehe
We went shopping after that, and dinner at Far East! We each bought stuffs.. hehe
tiring but satisfied, we went home after a good dinner, and good buys!!
Thursday, 20 March 2008
Good Friday!!
It is Good Friday tomorrow! I have been looking forward to it since a few weeks back, since it is the only public holiday in these few months. however, now i've still loads of project to do, and the mood seems to be lost.
List of things to do, all due within these few weeks
tr3001 final report, final presentation, prototype 40%
gender presentation, textbook readings for that topic 40%
developmental processes final report 50%
modes of invention test april 1st and final take home examination 25% each
wow! that's alot of tings to do, and so little time! i think the worst ting about me, is that i am very bad at time organisation, planning and management. i always dun seem to have enough time for everything! no time to study, no time to relax, no time to shop, ktv, do things i like. and this lack of time creates a lot of trouble, and i lose motivation to do things.. oh well. i really have to buck up and do my best!! i find life more meaningful when i have many things to do, interspaced within a small time period, but i tink it's a paradox. when i do things i like/enjoy doing, then i wont feel so stressed, but when i dun, i feel really terrible at times.
enjoy Good friday my friends! cant wait to go ktv tmr, and mahjong on saturday! well, i better work on my tr report on monday right after devt processes lecture then! haha. im sure i'll be able to find it fun! still have to remind myself to read gender textbook over the wkend(haven touched it since the test) lolz
List of things to do, all due within these few weeks
tr3001 final report, final presentation, prototype 40%
gender presentation, textbook readings for that topic 40%
developmental processes final report 50%
modes of invention test april 1st and final take home examination 25% each
wow! that's alot of tings to do, and so little time! i think the worst ting about me, is that i am very bad at time organisation, planning and management. i always dun seem to have enough time for everything! no time to study, no time to relax, no time to shop, ktv, do things i like. and this lack of time creates a lot of trouble, and i lose motivation to do things.. oh well. i really have to buck up and do my best!! i find life more meaningful when i have many things to do, interspaced within a small time period, but i tink it's a paradox. when i do things i like/enjoy doing, then i wont feel so stressed, but when i dun, i feel really terrible at times.
enjoy Good friday my friends! cant wait to go ktv tmr, and mahjong on saturday! well, i better work on my tr report on monday right after devt processes lecture then! haha. im sure i'll be able to find it fun! still have to remind myself to read gender textbook over the wkend(haven touched it since the test) lolz
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